Life has become, as I recently put it, more regimented and that's caused me to realize I'm spread thinner than I thought. Okay, really-- I'm all over the freaking place right now. I've been studying the Enneagram with the intent to teach it eventually, and oh yeah-- I'm apprenticing with a shoemaker too. I also just started nannying for my amazing baby nephew, Gunnar, two days a week! If that wasn't enough, remember that vintage clothing gig? Yeah, my shop, a business that I am solely responsible for. Eeep, and that's not even all I have my hands in. See what I'm seeing? This girl is a little unfocused at the moment, and in that state there's just no quality to be had (in any of those areas). What happened to my staunch "No" Person status?!
This afternoon I voiced these realizations to a friend and even expressed that I felt a little annoyed with God for giving me so many options-- though I realize, "God, how dare you give me so many gifts and oppertunities?", is a pretty idiotic thing to feel or think, much less actually type. *headdesk* It was then that I realized (for the millionth time) that he just wants to bless what I choose.
So, really, I still have no idea. Just thought I'd post that for the record. Or whatever.
'Till next time, when I have my act together (or not).